Dismantle. Repair.

I'll start by saying this isn't my first blog by any means. I've had several over the years and I always stop after about ten entries or so, with that said I hope I don't disappoint you too much. I don't even know if I'll even show anyone this. Although, I say that every time so we'll just have to see how busy I get and how much I care lol.
I'm feeling very unbalanced this week. My boyfriend of two months (three on the 27th) is in Chicago, Illinois for basic training to be in the Navy. Having seen him every single day practically all day this summer, I'm going just a little crazy. I've fallen completely (and stupidly) in love with him and I miss him so badly my heart hurts to think about him not being here. Not only is he not here, but I can't speak to him other than letters for the next 8-10 weeks depending on how well he does. Even worse, I won't get my first letter from him for another 2 weeks >.<. He is all I've thought about and he's all I can talk about recently so I'm apologizing now for the excessive amount of Daniel-Talk that will be in this here blog lol. I wanted to keep a written sort of something to document this part of my life with but I know that I'll be doing a LOT of hand writing in the near future with school starting Monday (YIKES) and my letters so I decided that an online blog would be the best thing for me to do. Along with the feelings of sadness that I have, I've also been pretty happy lately because I realized that for once my feelings of missing someone are returned. Usually I only miss a boyfriend who's just broken up with me or something along those lines, but this time we haven't broken up just farther away from each other and it's a whole new form of missing. I feel a bit dumb for using the word missing so much and not as a verb but I'm not sure what else to call missing someone lol. Any who. I also have feelings of dread mixed with excitement for school starting so soon. I'll be a freshman in college and I'm really scared that I won't be able to keep up, but I'm going to try my hardest and put my best foot forward all the same. I think my lack of stability also may have something to do with my room being a complete and total mess. This has been the effect of me spending every second I could with Danny before he left >.<

Edit: So. I'm really pissed off and remembering why I left Blogger. I went to post my long ass entry and it told me that there was an html error and deleted everything after that smiley face! I am not rewriting it so I guess this is goodnight.

-Hater of Blogger.